I have wasted most of my years waiting for someone to care. Sitting there, wondering how all these bad things could be happening to me. How I could be so beaten by life. At first I believed to be punished and kept praying little girls prayers to be forgiven. Then I figured just asking for something and … Continue reading The people pleaser
So, I got 14 people in my friendlist on facebook but I am severely active on that network. Means: I post a lot of things daily. My fiance once mentioned this on my last visit towards friends. He was like: "She got only 8 friends but she is ACTIVE!" I think he said that with … Continue reading Me currently
I always had these people, telling me what's so wrong about me, in my life. But they wouldn't leave. In the end it was always me to go and them to realize: They remain with theirselves - unsatisfied. Always. No lie.
Imagine life without family. Imagine to live life everyday surrounded by strangers. No one to come home to. Of course I do want someone to love me. At least one person to be dearly fond of me. Someone to keep me in their prayers when I be long gone. That one person that would never … Continue reading Exhaust
I'm one out of 2% of the human population on this planet which are officially count to be Bipolar and God knows if these numbers are correct. I was born the daughter of a schizophrenic mother, which can be mentioned now but was not even diagnosed until after her suicidal death in 2011. During her … Continue reading Diving into…
So, let's not always be poetic. I started this blog in first place, to be writing. And writing contains all kinds of BLA. Since I have discovered that my Bipolar and how I handle that condition, can be of interest or even help to other individuals, I'd like to head into that direction. Because I … Continue reading Welcome the Bipolar
This is a painting, not a photograph. The photograph got distorted. Soundtrack: http://www.dailymotion.com/video/x26pqb_marilyn-manson-eat-me-drink-me_music I advise to get high, listen to the track and look at it - that's the environment it was made for.