I am 32 years (old) and I have been married all of my life eversince I had reached the age for marriage. I was married twice to be precise and am currently preparing to try a third and Inshallah last time. My frist marriage was arranged and lasted seven long years and God knows as … Continue reading Mine from God
Every little hurtful experience happens on purpose. To provide with currency for your "struggle-account". We keep being hurt by just living to save up to a specific amount. But right the moment when there is no more to bear - God provides you with reason. And this reason is just one person with the ability … Continue reading Medicine
I tried to hate God but while writing and explaining how come I hate God but why others should remain loving him - I fell in love with God even more than before... Oh how much I hate my heart...
There are two ways of worshipping God: 1. in following the example of a man who had everything done right and devote life to prayers and proper behaviour as advised in holy scripture 2. in devoting life to the never ending research of the self and it's purpose. Because the final conclusion to it all … Continue reading Worship
- those we commit towards ourselves (drinking, drugging, cutting, doubting, laziness, offering our bodies to random people, etc.) which may be forgiven, depending on - those we commit towards others (lying, cheating, hurting, oppressing, stealing, gossiping, etc) which will be count due to the amount of damage we caused and will not be forgiven, unless … Continue reading There are two kinds of sins:
This world is a harsh and cold place. People are so ugly and mean. So I do my best to avoid them, but it happens I hear them say the most horrible things and watch them hurt each other without the slightest indication of concern. They don't even hesitate, nor do they notice. This makes … Continue reading #random pain
I won't need a word, nor will I need you agree. Because I had promised myself to you in a bygone life and with that vow, to worship you was written my duty. Carved within my soul. So to bow down into your direction, because you have taken all the sacredness away from Makkah, is … Continue reading Watch me love you from the distance until eternity…